Itjaw

So here I am again sitting at my keyboard with nothing to write about….

That stalling sentence that I just did gave me time to think of what to write about but I think it’s better if I just leave what I write there otherwise it feels too much like I’m writing something thats really important….

So I play the violin….

I’m not overly talented… But I can play Ok…. ish

So let me set the scene for you…

I’m sitting in the small sound proof practice room in my schools music block…

I’m there with my mate who is much much better than I am but for some reason has really hard time playing simple pieces…

We’re playing a simple piece… As long as you check the dynamics and keep a steady beat your fine…. So we play it though fine…. And the teacher says “That was really good Philip.”

This may not seem like much but that’s been playing on my mind for the rest of this afternoon….

She said it like she was really surprised that I could play… It wasn’t even a hard piece… I’m not being modest… I’m not one of those people who downplay their talents… If i was really good at something I’d probably tell the world…

So I go to my English class which is half done (I was busy getting my self esteem bashed) I walk in and do the English class thing for half an hour… Go out and someone I know starts up a conversation about me playing a violin… and she says “I just can’t imagine you playing an instrument…” I reply ” Well thats just because you just can’t imagine me with any talent or skill.” (*Long extremely awkward pause*) That’s honestly what she thinks! I was joking…

So overall a good self esteem day…

Those are my favourite type of days…

Itjaw

So i’ve gotten rid of the two side page things that I used to have… I basically just got tired of the idea of them….

I’ll probably make a new one sometime later when I’m feel like doing something differant….

So today is Ekka holiday…

The Ekka is a fun fair type thing and for some reason the Wednesday that it’s on is a public holiday… But the day after is also a student free day at the vast vast majority of schools so basically it’s a mid week weekend…

Not that I’m complaining or anything but that does seem a little bit weird….

So I think at the moment lots of people are ignoring me or blocking me… or both…

It may just be that little bit of paranoia that I think we all enjoy sometimes, but on the other hand it may not be….

So what’s been happening???

Now I remember, this made me feel really bad….

I was at someone’s house and we somehow started making jokes about that awkward birds and the bees talk… You know, when a mommy and daddy love each other very much….

Well mine was this:

When a mommy and daddy love each other very much they get married, shout at each other, have you, shout some more, meet heartless lawyers,  take half of each others stuff and stop loving you….

Not the most cheerful thing to say but yeah… and then it turns out that person who’s house I was at mother was a lawyer and his parents were recently separated….

He didn’t mention anything at the time…. I didn’t know! But that made me feel pretty bad….

Gotta love a good individual guilt trip….

Loving every minute of it so far…

Itjaw